Hi all! I have been on a bit of a hiatus for the last month. It has been the busiest, most stressful, scariest part of my life, with high highs (making the deans list) and very low lows (almost losing my mom). Through it all one thing has held constant, the love and joy I have when being around all my babies.
It all began with my crazy course load this semester and having a final on the 23rd of December!! I was frustrated and defeated after studying for weeks. Then the night before a super tough final, Ruby spent the night at my house. No it may not have been the best way to study (try studying media ethics while playing princesses), but it was just the medicine I needed that week. I put her to bed in my room, and when I went to bed I captured this peaceful, precious moment. Ruby sound asleep under the Christmas tree I have slept under all my life 🙂
Following that was the holidays which are always crazy busy, but in the best way possible! That meant family parties, dinners, seeing my babies, and attempting to decompress from a difficult semester. I had 3 family Christmas parties in 3 days. So much fun, but so exhausting. Ruby and I spent on day going to visit Santa Claus, and it was perfection. Watching the magic of Christmas expressed in her eyes and words was so much fun. I was reminded why this time of year is so special to so many, the magic and hope brought from the holidays in and of itself is calming. Then of course I had to play Santa Nanny and visit all my babies and give them their presents! One present was a date night with my boyfriend (or Ruby’s boyfriend as she calls him), another was a tie blanket, and for another family, my all time favorite children’s princess movie ENCHANTED. Visiting them and being able to put a smile on their faces was the perfect way to unwind
After all the parties ended and things calmed down I had a minute to breathe- not very easily. I had come down with a cold a day after all the crazy ended. So my usual coping mechanisms of baby cuddles was off the table. I spent 5 days in bed watching Netflix (Damages is amazing!) and getting updates on how all my babies Christmas’ were 🙂 While in bed one day I got an email saying I made the Dean’s List! Given how hard my semester was I was hoping just to pass, so this was unbelievable. I was going into the first week of January on a high. Everything was going perfectly, and I had a trip to Chicago with my boyfriend in a few days to look forward to.
Then the unthinkable happened. The scariest moment of my life. I got a call that my mom was being taken, via an ambulance, to the hospital because she had had a brain bleed. Everything stopped. My heart stopped. My mom, my best friend, my person was in danger of losing her life. After a very long night and copious amounts of tests, we were given the news that she was no longer in immediate danger. She needed to be hospitalized for a week because there was still blood in her brain which is obviously not good. I learned a lot in those first few days. I learned how strong I can be in the face of uncertainty. I learned every technical medical term known to man kind related to my mom’s brain bleed 🙂 and I learned how lucky I am to have such amazing support system. Of course my dad, brother, boyfriend, best friends, and extended family were there for me, but beyond that the families I work for were there for anything I needed. It was not only through the calls and texts I received about being there for me, but the flowers they sent to my mom and well wishes and offers for food or anything for me and my family. It was truly amazing. What I told most of them I wanted was to come babysit for a few hours and watch their kids as a little distraction and comfort 🙂
All and all my mom is on the mend and doing better. The uncertainty is scary, but I know if I ever need anyone to talk to I can call any one of the moms I work for and they would be there for me in a second. The relationships I have formed with the families I work for is an undoubtable blessing. Getting to spend time with all of the kids in my life is the best medicine and cure for any hopeless, scary situation. One moment spent with one of them and I am reminded of the wonder, innocence, and joy there is in every moment of life. After almost a week in the hospital my mom is back home recovering. I have spent the whole last week at home hanging out with her while she tries to get back to normal. Once Friday rolled around I couldn’t spend another week without my Ruby. It was the perfect day. Ruby, my mom, and I spent the morning together having breakfast, laughing, and playing. Seeing my mom getting back to being herself and joking around with Ruby was a moment I will never forget. All I need to be happy in life is my mom and my babies 🙂 (and my boyfriend, and dog, and best friends, and aunts, and uncles, and cousins… you get the picture).
I have some big things planned for The Nanny Guide this year so stay tuned! As always thank you for taking the time to read my blog 🙂
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